choices.

The thing about choices is that we have to take responsibility for them. Even the ones we made while we were on autopilot, going through the motions, or not feeling our best. We still have to own those choices. I’m not proud of all the choices I’ve made over the past few years, but I can’t go back and change the past I can only make better, more conscious choices today/moving forward. I think that’s how we make peace with the past and influence the future — by taking charge of what we can do today.

I’m doing my best to pay my dues on past choices I made. Doing my best to clean up the messes of a version of myself I am no longer. I’m craving a clean slate and trying not to focus too much on the future as a form of escape. I just want to make better choices. And I’m coming to terms with the fact that sometimes better choices aren’t always the easiest or most convenient to make.