“Good art originates not from the desire to show off but from the desire to show yourself. Good art always comes from our desperate desire to breathe, to be seen, to be loved.”
— Glennon Doyle
Hey, I’m Keimaya.
[pronounced like key-my-ya]
I’m a twenty-something, Birmingham, Alabama native with a butterfly spirit. I like to consider myself a blooming woman “getting to the roots” — unraveling and discovering my most authentic self and desires. I've always used writing as a means to transmute experiences and express myself vulnerably and authentically. I hope that as a result of my work and my words people can say, “I am more myself.”
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willow trees.
I no longer want to live life passively
Peaking out the window, waiting until the coast is clear
I no longer want to tiptoe
Or walk on eggshells
Afraid that I will throw this false illusion of peace and safety off balance
I no longer want to tame my feelings
And desires
Forcing them to keep quiet and walk in a single file line
When deep down they want to riot
I no longer want to run from rebirth
And hoard identities that no longer resonate
I no longer want to live in limbo
A lukewarm oasis due to my fears around deciding
Am I making the right decisions?
Should I be doing “more?”
Will this make me happy?
I no longer want to let not having it all figured out stop me
From saying yes
From having fun
From enjoying myself
From having what I deserve
From pursuing what I truly want
From trial
And error (without the shame and guilt)
I am pulling myself up from a life that told me no too many times
I realize rejection was just a reflection of my inability to see myself clearly
I no longer want to show up as anything less than me
Planting seeds of misalignment and wondering why there are no willow trees
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leftovers from the south.
Have you ever been to the south?
I saved you leftovers for later
Treat them like a souvenir you can dust off on occasion and put back on a shelf
The south might seem faded, but it’s vintage and valuable
Despite the pressure to upgrade, the south has been passed down for generations
We have to keep it
It’s a divine reference point
The south stores ancient wisdom
It defies time and space
My ancestors made me the face and the vessel
Have you ever been to the south?
You take a visit every time you look into my eyes
I’m rooted here
And will plant seeds that will sprout into the future generations of healers
The south must be handled with care
But please don’t mistake it for fragile or frail
The south does not yell
It’s the silence that makes it so loud
So strong
So felt, so warm, so influential...so proud
There’s no denying that the south is deep in your bones
Running deep through your veins
The south is like a catalog of last names that got you here
The south came before us and will reign supreme long after our dismissal
Serving as a divine finish line and starting point
The south will keep you young
Despite how old it looks amidst your shelf of technological advancement
The rhythm of the south is something you’ll always dance with
And you won’t overthink your moves because the energy of the south will move you
The south will pull you to places that will chew you up and spit you out
Not as punishment, but as preparation
The south molds us into stars
My grandma’s house always felt like a galaxy
Our communities resemble constellations
I keep getting invitations to have dinner in other dimensions
I know it’s because the south has made me otherworldly
Have you ever been to the south?
I saved you leftovers from the menu of misinterpretation
The south doesn’t have to be understood
Because you will feel it with every footstep
It will follow you everywhere you go
I saved you leftovers from the south
So you’ll always have a piece of home away from home
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a drive home (due time isn’t a death sentence)
red lights are not inconveniences
they are beautiful reminders to pause and be present
I inhale my surroundings and exhale any distractions
the sun’s rays serve as mirrors if we allow them to
reflecting us back to us
our vibrancy, our radiance, our fullness if we choose to accept our light
the clouds are pillars of comfort
the trees give us permission to be rooted, grounded, and connected to the path we choose to walk
the rain is cleansing
the exit signs on the interstate give me the reassurance that I can always leave or go in a different direction
the birds spread the word of an infinite and boundless energy that we have access to too
a butterfly meets me at my doorstep with a special delivery
a package of patience
for without dark cocoons and wombs how can anything take the form it’s intended to?
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ease up.
ease up,
we can’t outpace God
if we reek of desperation I’m sure our blessings will smell it
get up,
have some dignity and decorum about yourself
add a dash of patience
a pinch of grace
and top it off with faith
my granny used to say a watched cake never bakes
we don’t have to micromanage God or breathe down his neck
fixating won’t make anything happen faster
maybe his provision is the grown folks business we gotta stay out of
go back to the kiddie table
go play
go enjoy yourself
it’s all working out, so act like it.
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permission.
I have permission to go at a pace that doesn’t hurt
I can be soft
I can cry myself a river, then swim in it
Floating…as the H20 cleanses my being
Thank you
Do I have to keep telling God the things He already knows?
Am I praying or is this glorified begging?
Help me, God.
I don’t want to drown in the complexity of existing
Swimming in worries as the shoreline teases me
It gets to enjoy the view without being swallowed by it
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a letter to myself.
I hope you learn how to let go and relinquish control
I hope you learn to trust that:
it’ll all work out
there’s no rush
who you desire to be is inherent and nature will run its course…no force needed
I hope you never make an altar out of suffering again
and that you learn how to enjoy good and pure things without thinking there’s a catch or allowing paranoia to rob you of your pleasure
I hope you take more leaps of faith if it means you’ll be more fulfilled
I hope you lose your mind many times
If it means you’ll set yourself free
I hope you come back home to yourself every night
even when it hurts, even when it’s heavy, even when it’s hard
because you can’t abandon you
I hope you spend less time in your head and more time in your heart
in your body
I hope you speak your truth without any shame
I hope you never shrink or dilute yourself again
because if you outshine the sun that’s your prerogative
I hope you stop viewing your intuition as a fluke and lean into the whispers of wisdom
I hope you qualify yourself time and time again
I hope you make your own rules and terms and conditions
I hope when your inner child speaks you stop to listen
and give her permission to color outside the lines
I hope you undress every limiting belief
and that your sowing aligns with the quality of abundance you want to reap
I hope you free yourself from the shackles of your inner critic
I hope you take the little girl within you off of a leash
I hope you allow yourself to be who you actually are instead of who you think you need to be